A Day in the Life...whew!: Who am I?

Conversations with a 4-year-old

Sitting down to dinner...CiBaby: "I sure wish we had a horse." T-Daddy: "Well, if we had a horse we would have to live on a farm." CiBaby: "That would be GREAT!!!"

Driving in the car...CiBaby: "Mama, does Snow White have 7 dopes?"

Driving in the car...CiBaby: "Mama, I makin' sometin." CzaMama: "Really, what are you making?" CiBaby: "I making a ball out of boogers." CzaMama: "I see." (a moment of silence) CiBaby: "It not working!!!" CzaMama: "That's because you're not suppose to make balls out of boogers."

CiBaby was standing in front of her new mirror (nekkid)...CiBaby: "Look Mama! I have 2 moles right here and here." CzaMama: "No dear, those are nipples." CiBaby: "You have nipples too?" CzaMama: Yes dear, I have nipples too."

CiBaby was nibbling an apple...CiBaby: "Look Mama! A heart!" CzaMama: "You're right honey, it is in the shape of a heart!" CiBaby: "I gonna eat it, I like shapes."

Monday, July 21, 2008

Who am I?

This is a question I've asked myself time and again throughout the years.

For years I was CzaRena, the street smart, logic based, creative, crafty, handy, sassy, intelligent*, exuberant, eclectic, good cooking, body building, people loving, violin playing, tech savvy, fair playing, gardening, devil's advocate, hip, dancing fiend traveler who battled anorexia, low self-esteem and miscarriages to come out well on the other side.

Now that I'm CzaMama I'm trying to remember who I was and keep everything I've worked so hard to become over the years, but add a little something more. While I love being a mom, that's not all I want to be, nor do I want my girls to see. I am more than just someone's mom...I'm Cza!

*I recently discovered after several IQ tests that I'm not as dingy as I had been thinking...to say I was "shocked" would be a bit much, but definitely pleasantly affirmed.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...: RENA! You are still those things! You're fabulous!!!! And now on top of that you are a great mother!; July 21, 2008 at 5:48 PM
Sara H. said...: First, Second, Third impressions of you are all the things you listed above. But, I also see you as compassionate. You are an awesome mom and a great friend.; July 21, 2008 at 9:23 PM
Katerina said...: Rena, You rock! and I am so glad that I have met you. Our kids freinds will always see us as someones mom but to other moms you are a inspiration. Kids just don't realize that until they have kids of their own (just don't tell my mom that).
;-); July 22, 2008 at 1:51 PM
Muganoot Mommy said...: Funny, I've always seen these wonderful things in you, sweet Cza! You left out the part about an infectious giggle, bearing a genuine sense of kindness that is so rare, and a smile that warms a room. But hey, that's just what I see. :)

Oh and you DO have a very endearing Minnesota accent to this Boston girl's ear! Oh ya, you betcha do.; July 22, 2008 at 7:09 PM
Anonymous said...: You are PERFECT!! Need I say more? Well, I can...you're kind, outgoing, welcoming, an absolute riot, patient, honest, & you've got the best skirts! Plus as a bonus you're smokin' hot (not saying that in a gay way or anything)!; July 22, 2008 at 8:14 PM
CzaMama said...: Aww thanks everyone.

I had a couple frantic calls after I posted this, and no, I'm not going off the deep end.

Recently I've been introduced only as CiBaby's mom (by adult women, no less)...no name and almost like a complete after thought. It was a bit disconserting.

I love being a mom, but one day they'll fly the coop and I'll be left with Me, Myself and I once again. I figure if I can keep "Me" going, it won't be so hard when they leave to become themselves. I hope they will be as successful at it as I was/am.; July 25, 2008 at 11:49 AM